In conclusion..

I found myself in a very insighful mood today.Yea,a whole day lazing,great music,a long shower,a painkiller and roasted marshmellows(heart-shaped..*rolls eyes*) apparently do that to me..So here's what I came up with..sudden realisations,my own beliefs,things I know by experience(others and my own),and astute observations.

*Karma works!.Always,maybe not immediately but things have a way of catching up with you.So be good!!

*That George was right all along.I was destined to break hearts.(And in retrospect mess with minds)

*That people pretend for no apparent reason.Posers all around.Mostly pretending to like someone they absolutely loath.

*That I should avoid carrying drinks/icecream as much as possible when I'm around Yohann.(It sinply spells bad news for good tops/shoes/pants/bags/surfaces...):D

*That complex is what I am,and complicated is how I really prefer life to be.

*That nice guys may finish last,but they always win the best trophies.

*That I think like a male.No kidding!

*The fact that Bombay(now Mumbai>argh<) is becoming more and more unsafe for women is freaking me out!

*I'm a true aquarian..in every way.

*Noone,absolutely noone, is perfect.And to be perfect is quite boring anyway.

*The people who often say "I'm bored" are 99% of teh time completely bored with themselves!!(and are also major bores around whom boredom hangs like moisture in clouds(damn.,wat a crappy line!))

*Comparing yourself to people is the best way to get yourself down.Everyone is unique and though they may seem to have it all or nothing,each person does have gr8 and absolutely cringe-worthy things about them.In the end,we're all equal..really..

*That waiting sucks! But,it also makes what you waited for that much better.(Liable to various exceptions..)

*That I seriously wanna slap all the men involved in eve-teasing especially those sick bastards who hang out ove trains and holler at girls,or move around crowded areas just waiting for a chance to grope someone.Ofcourse,the people involved in rape and more serious crimes deserve to die.And also it makes me consider most men as absolute scum.

*St.Xaviers is the one place I've always wanted to be.And I'm soooo glad I made it.

*Voveron does work(eventually),but chocolate is a godsend!..

*I can love like mad...and hate like poison!!(courtesy-als)

*That I'm hardly ever in touch with whats happening in teh world at large.I'm getting limited to m own immediate circle of friends/surroundings...and lack of information is causing the nuerons in my brain to literally die!

*I say way too much 'shit' and 'bitch'..and stay quiet when i really need to scream!

*That when a song is tuck in your head,the only thing you can do is sing it till your done,or find it and keep playing it(that way atleats others do not have t bear you singing!)..or distract yourself with another song.

*Most guys are born dumb,(could mean a variety of things..acc to situations) remain dumb, and die dumb!

*That being respected is better than being liked.And respect has to be earned,not demanded.

*That though I'm extremely indecisive,once I've made up my mind..I tend to stick to my decision.

*I do not ahve good 'people' skills...or rather 'keeping in contact' with ppl skills.Out of sight generally means out of mind.

*I get jealous easily but can admire just as easliy.

*That I don't really care what people think or say.

*My body is mine and I like it!

*That insecure is what I used to be. But I still am shy.

*Respecting women is a sure sign of a gentleman.

*I don't wanna prove that women are better than men,I believe that both sexes are equal.

*That in the end,I don't regret much in my life.Hardly anything,infact.Everything has made me what I am today.Which isn't bad..:P

*I'm totally against cruelty towards animals.And poaching.And believing that man is better.

*I can forgive easily.But forgetting is not on my agenda.

*I hate close-mindedness(.Live and let live.To each,their own.)And hypocrites.

*I LOVE BLUE!!!

More Random Verses...

Another twist
Another turn,
Another lesson,
To be learnt.
A broken heart,
A wounded knee,
A chance to be:
Healed and free.
*****
So surreal,
I cannot believe
the truth.It hurts,
What a surprise:
My love is cursed!
Ev'ryone thought,
He loved me true.
But I love him,
And he does not..
The pain I gave,
Now I begot.
*****
The light of:
A thousand stars,
Speckled skies,
Bright red mars.
Reflected in your
Minds eye..
Not love,nay!
But another prize.
*****
Bliss comes wearily,
Clothed in haze,
Never found fleeting,
Lost in a daze.
*****
Love mocks the feeble,
Ransoms the brave,
Shows most willingly:
A path to the grave.
*****
Hurt lingers forever,
Gnaws at a soul,
Perhaps,never revealed,
For eternity,untold.
*****
No light on the path,
Called lonliness.
No hurt on the path,
Called hate.
What pain in the hearts,
Of those who love!
What plight of those,
Who care!
*****

Be wary of flattery,
Be thankful of praise,
To know the difference,
Seek the speakers gaze!

*****

I don't give a damn!!

"I Don't Give A Damn" -Avril Lavigne
(her songs are made for all life situations somehow..!!)

To:that intruder...

Everytime you go away
It actually kinda makes my day
Everytime you leave
You slam the door

You pick your words so carefully
You hate to think you're hurting me
You leave me laughing on
The floor

Cause I don't give it up, I don't give a damn
What you say about that
You know I won't give it up, I don't give a damn
What you say about that
You know I'm not gonna cry,
about some stupid guy
A guy who thinks he's all that!!

You went to all your friends to brag
Guys are always such a drag
Don't you know the reason that I talked to you was to say goodbye

Cause I won't give it up
I don't give a damn
what you say about that
You know I won't give it up
I don't give a damn
what you say about that

You know I'm not gonna cry about some stupid guy
A guy who thinks he's all that

Hanging hanging out,
I am simplyHanging hanging out,
I am simplyHanging

Don't you know that I...
I don't give a damn about you
I won't give it up not for you
I don't give a damn about you
I won't give it up not for you
I'm not gonna cry about some stupid guy
A guy who thinks he's all that
I don't give it upI don't give a damn
what you say about that
You know I don't give it upI don't give a damn
what you say about that
I won't give it up
I don't give a damn
what you say about that
You know I won't give it up
I don't give a damn
what you say about that??

You think I fell for dat farce??I know exactly what lies behind dat polite,nice,innocent behaviour you show...only to me.And the lies!The pretending!The nonchalance!

I hate it all..and you..for being a hypocrite..for wrecking my peace..for trying to cause trouble..making all dese divisions..hurting ppl close to me...ahven't you ha denough already??

Give up..cos I ain't giving in!!

.....

The ceiling crumbling..the walls tumbling.In on us.You and me.And what we used to be.What we are now.The floors given way.Falling..falling..falling.. OUT!.. Too much love all around.Making me sick.Valentines day and cheesy lines.Freaking hearts everywhere..and I mean everywhere.Red and pink ad pink and pink.stinks! Blue valentines...much better.. .Shiv sena spoiling evryones fun.Run,run run. a new couple..hope it all goes well with them kids..*Sigh*

Totally.In love.Fallen.And its such a great feeling.The cynic transformed into a romantic..does that make me a hypocrite?..

Twists n Trust

Not him...Not her...Not them..Not again! Everyone.Someone.Anyone.Noone.The best soaps on tv are no match for whats happening rigth now.Ok..they do have more violence,sex and scandals that have greater impact.But still,this is pure drama.Authentic.Life (others' right now..thankfully) with all its ups and downs and surprises.Wondering if they've all gone of their rockers.Heartbreak,heartache and the like...friends and foes..stabs in teh back..strange alliances..confidantes..and confidences betrayed...mind games... another teen tragedy?...love..and exams!!...lol... ********* Trust..I know now,for certain who I can.Loose lips and two faces.Hidden agendas.Wolves in sheeps clothing.Some I had the foresight..some I had the experience, not to trust.Others still..been let down.Maybe it was hard for you..That's what they all say. In that case,you win some,you lose some. This time:you've lost my trust! Again..and again..and today,yet again.Well..this was the last straw. Been betrayed.I was right then.Before.Not knowing you.Sensing something was amiss.Well..now I know.And how.Betrayal:hurtful..especially when I realise how much I really care.Cared. Just wanna save her from getting hurt too.But I know you wont.Or atleast I think you do...

Unnoticed stupidity

There she goes..'The Enlightened Soul' Ha! Screaming like a child,oh the most sophisticate dword of course-FUCK! Honestly,how the mighty have fallen!
The same user of words like 'laconic' and knower of 'Asamov' facts..(His autobiography was twice the length of the history of the world,if you musy know!) is now at this level.Q tells me she's alreday engaged.No,not liek those silly underage arranged marriages.A proper boyfriend in love proposal.Lord!..and she's supposed to be smart!In conclusion,may I also scream about the dropping standards of teen intelligence??..Ah-FUCK!

Trouble and Tears

All I can feel..
Is this even real?
When did life get so hard?
The pain echoes deep.
Making you weak.
Like an open wound,
Pricked by glass shards.
Picking up the pieces,
Of what you left behind.
Shattered and scattered
Like my messed up mind.
I want: the answers,
To questions unknown.
Perfect abandon,
Some time on my own.
So swiftly things changing,
No stone left unturnd.
Wholely affecting,
Whatever we yearned.
Like the epicentre,
Of an earthquake benign,
Too many stories.
Too little signs.