Messed Mind

There's something on my mind,
I can't define
It's constant presence
Changing me,my ways
Thoughts forming a maze
That I'm trapped in
Another dead-end
Turn
Another bend
Longing,straining,fumbling..
For respite,some relief
What's left to believe?
Guilty as a thief
Lonely as an outcast
Not wanting company
Falling,falling,falling fast!
Into another dark abyss
What is it I miss?
My moods:like waves
A storm at sea!
Calm and solemn appearing to be
Turbulent currents below
Caught in the undertow..
Nowhere to go
Confront what?
I do not know
This is far from confusion
For I have no choices
I'm not insane
I hear no "voices"
Lost, so lost, in thought
But,I'm not thinking
I'm not drowning
Im sinking!
Into myself.